Cheers

I have to say I have never been one to do the whole New Year's resolution thing. To me, New Year's resolutions are kind of like Valentine's Day, an excuse to do something on one day that you should be capable of doing anytime. I can express my love not just on February 14th, but all year long. I can make changes anyday, not just because it's a new year. This year however, I am finding the upcoming new year a perfect excuse to give myself the slap in the face of a big change. Just happens to be good timing and yes, I said I needed a slap in the face and I mean that, but don't get too excited friends because it's one that needs to be self-administered. Have you ever gotten into a funk that slowly grew on you without your even having realized that you had gotten to a place you never wanted nor thought you would ever be in?!? I woke up one day and have everyday since then wondering why I didn't notice what was happening at the time and then felt the panic of, "what the hell am I gonna do now to get un-funked?!?" So I have taken a little too long at this point to find the solution to un-funking myself so I suppose this year I am going to go against my own beliefs and make myself a New Year's resolution...or 2...or 10. I am tired of living in a "haze" of what could have been and being angry with the cruel reality of the world and myself for letting it get the best of me. No more!!! "If [s]he gets up, we'll all get up, it'll be anarchy!" Well, peeps I am bringing on the "upset" in my life and ignorning all "authority," but my own. I am going to totally disrupt all that I have found normal in my life for a long time. No more being afraid of the risks that could potentially be the key to my life. Next time someone tells me change is not "safe," I am going to remind them that safe got me in my current position and also that sometimes, safe is stupid. I want a remarkable life, not one where the marks have gotten me nowhere. Need to pull out my inner Tawanda so to speak and pull myself up by my bootstraps. And please, feel free to join me if you and I are sailing in the same boat. So, yeah cheers to me bitches ;)